In this world filled with indifference and rules, I feel like a forgotten speck of dust, struggling to survive in the cracks of life. From the constraints of family to the oppression of society, every step is accompanied by my stubbornness of "never compromising," but this stubbornness often feels like a silent protest against fate.
Family: Breathing Difficulties in the Gap Between Love and Control
Home should be a warm harbor, yet it has become my deepest cage. The expectations of my elders are like invisible chains, tightly binding my soul. Their love comes with too many conditions and expectations, leaving me breathless. I try to break free, only to find that every effort is in vain. In this so-called "home," I have learned to be silent, to hide my true self, simply because I refuse to compromise, refuse to be the "perfect" child in their eyes.
School: Exhaustedly Running in the Arena of Grades
School is a temple of knowledge and an arena of grades. Here, I have witnessed countless efforts and failures; each fall deepens my despair. Grades have become the only measure of my worth, and I seem forever unable to reach that unattainable peak. I am tired of this endless competition, tired of a life defined by scores. Yet even so, I still refuse to compromise, refuse to give up my thirst for knowledge; it just feels so pale and powerless under the pressure of reality.
Workplace: Struggling Through the Quagmire of Human Relations and Unwritten Rules
The workplace is a microcosm of reality and a testing ground for human nature. Here, I have witnessed too much hypocrisy and betrayal; every attempt to fit in feels like stepping into an endless quagmire. The warmth and coldness of human relations, the prevalence of unwritten rules—I try to maintain my integrity, but I find this nearly impossible. I refuse those dirty deals, yet I pay a heavy price for it. In the mire of the workplace, I stubbornly struggle, simply because I refuse to compromise, refuse to become someone I look down upon.
Society: Lonely Search for a Glimmer of Light in the Torrent of Reality
Society is a vast and cruel stage, where I feel unprecedented loneliness and helplessness. Reality is like an invisible wall, trapping me firmly. I try to find a glimmer of light, a hope that can illuminate my path forward, only to discover that everything around me is pitch black. I stubbornly move forward, simply because I refuse to compromise, refuse to be swallowed by this bleak world. But more often than not, I feel like I am blindly groping in the dark, unable to find an exit.
Conclusion: Stubbornly Searching for a Glimmer of Light in a Gloomy Reality
From family to society, I have experienced too much disappointment and frustration. I know well that this world is not perfect, even filled with indifference and injustice. But I still refuse to compromise, refuse to give up my yearning for a better life. Even in the darkest moments, I stubbornly search for that glimmer of light, hoping it can guide me out of my predicament and help me find my own sky. Yet, this road is too long, too difficult.